Hey Char, Keep it positive. Put all you got into finding something worthy of your time and effort. I started my own business because I was sick of bosses with the holier than thou attitude. One of them even told me I should "think about the fact that I should consider myself privileged to work for him" Bah! Remember-when life hands you lemons..reach for the tequila and salt! Something good will come along.
The truth is, I still need the money even if I am working for a f***ing b**** today. I have been through a lot worse on the job already at different places of employment.
It will be awkward, but, you know what... it is not worth my emotional wellness. Nothing is worth sacrificing that.
She does not have the cajones to tell me what is going on. Then I will only speak to her when spoken to. I really don't care at this point. I am fairly sure I am being blamed for something that I did not do. I am not being given a chance to explain or advocate for myself... oh well, not the first time that this has happened. It is not illegal, apparently, to fire someone for no reason or for bad reason in Wisconsin, or most of the US for that matter.
I don't want to screw over the 10 or so good people I do work with by cutting out, not to mention myself. Monday I will start in earnest looking for another part-time sh** job.
I am already in the process of looking for a professional job and applying to grad schools, so I will keep my focus there... on my long term goals and this just a stepping stone to getting there.
I was hoping to go visit a few schools in North Carolina at the end of March beginning of April. I might still be able to swing it if I can just get through this crap with my head held high.
I don't want to get wrapped up in a bunch of bulls*** drama and get stressed out about it. I have so much going on right now (school part time, applying for professional full time work, applying to grad schools, homecoming in June and moving south hopefully in July, which is just five short months away, getting over a cold).
I am cutting down on stress in my life as much as I can. This is going to piss some of my friends off because I will not be around much, well it is just too bad.
I have to focus on my long term career goals and being the person I want to be. I want to be the person who has integrity and compassion and does what they are supposed to do because it is the right thing to do, regardless of what other people think.
I want to feel good about myself at the end of the day and uphold the spiritual practice I have that is more important than any person or approval from anyone I know. I have already lived 24 years of my life being what someone else wanted me to be.
And if I can't take it... well I will just walk out... if I am stuck with the mean old butch tonight and she is on my ass I will just tell her I am in no mood to be messed with, because you know what, she is a loser who does not have anything besdides her crappy job at a crappy over priced coffee house. If the owner thinks a manger who is just plain mean is a great asset, well then she is much more warped than I thought.
Oh well... life goes on.
I know I am just venting but really... I have had it with bullc*** that I really don't deserve. I am off to visit my friend who just had her chest sliced open again and try to just get out of myself for a few hours before I go into work.
"To thyne own self be true". That's what mother used to say. I don't know too much about smart people or degrees (but I have met Court), but I know the environmental stuff up in Alaska is always big. Government jobs are always good too. I wish I were a forest ranger or something similar. At any rate, good luck to you as you must deserve it for this many BadWebbers to like you. How about getting a FFL and selling guns and ammo ? I hear that they can't make them fast enough these days. Just remember the one person you absolutely have to sleep with every night is yourself.
OK. So that was the longest 8.5 hours of my life. The place was packed with screaming children and the friggin media... I just went and hid in the back for a while. She is not going to speak to me about whatever the f*** is going on... whatever... I only have 14 more hours this weekend to go.
Char could you have the children mis labeled The media may be annoying and covering up the kids. Kids will grow up the media never will ! Good luck on your job search Look toward fla we have many environmental agencies Oh and its 72 dry and sunny today
Cannot get out of that job fast enough. I know I am sounding like a b****y baby but I got yelled at last night and today... and it is always for some stupid little sh*t from the night manager or the owner... I wish I had the money to tell them to piss off. Yesterday they served someone a chocolate eclair with mold on it.
Can't really mope to a bunch of my friends either as many of them are patrons and friends with the owner.... grrrrrrrr... I feel about two feet tall right now. Maybe I should rent Clerks tonight?
I feel your pain. What always helps me is a good hard workout. If you have access to a gym, go do that. A good long run on the treadmill with some good music pumping into your head might do you some good. If they have a heavybag, even better. If I cant get to a gym, I do pushups and situps until I cant do another, then I sleep like a baby. Screw these people. When you get your job, they'll still be there, being miserable to each other. The best revenge is living well. Better days are coming.
Char, Sugar daddies are terrible on your self worth. I played S.D. for a while and the girls kept getting jobs at strip clubs. Sit down and draw up your plans for the next 10 years and don't forget that in the 10th year you become a sugar momma with a 24 year old cabana boy. If you set your goals too low you will make them all. Dream and scheme. You already have the secret,"I want to be the person who has integrity and compassion and does what they are supposed to do because it is the right thing to do, regardless of what other people think." The person that does right, is. I'll say hi to you at HC.
It's not a job, it's "just a job". Don't ever put anything of yourself into a job where others can take away from you. Do the job, and leave it at that. Expect inequitable management and you'll not be disappointed. Tough to do, but it sure is liberating.
Char, if anybody is in need of a motorcycle ride right now it is you!! My schedule this week sucks but try me early next and maybe we can set up that snowmobile ride! keep your chin up and don't sweat the small stuff! Treat it like my dog does, if you can't play with or eat it, lift your leg and piss on it!!
WEEEEE!!! I am going to every coffee house today in Madison to apply for work. I got 30 to hit... think I can do it in one day? If it doesn't work out, there is always the Velvet Jones option.
Char- why coffeehouses? Find a nice, well established and BUSY restaurant, one with check averages at least $12-15, full bar, etc. If you're gonna be a server there are better places than a coffeehouse, and MUCH better $$$.
You'll need a permit to sell alcohol, minor inconvenience to get one, but it goes with the territory.
Posted earlier to the music thread, thought about you- go get a listen to Robert Earl Keen's "Feeling Good Again". Music is always a salve for what ails ya... loud, on the hi-fi, with a cold beer is ideal. Or an ice cream sundae- chocolate does help your endorphin level.
If you want to move do not wait until you have a job where you want to move to. I have found that it is easier to get a job somewhere if you are already there. Even if you take a shit job while you find something in your field at least you are where you want to be living.
I am moving in July or August this summer. Period. Whether I have a job or school to go to or not... have friends in Chapel Hill North Carolina I can stay with 2-3 months...
I hate waitressing. Done it. Hate it. Would like to be driving cab again if I don't have a professional job but my old company- great group of people- isn't hiring.
Made 19 stops today and have 25 or so tomorrow. All this coffee I drank is killing me at this moment!
